[If he weren't suddenly so keen on covering his own ass and keeping the details of this whole mess on the down low, what Effie just said would have made him laugh. Yeah, he's gonna go running to Steph as soon as this is all over, and everything will be sunshine and rainbows.
Instead, it's the bitterness that shines through, and Saul rolls his eyes.]
I'm saying what I'm saying because I don't think it's fair to you. I should've realized that sooner. But what I mean isn't this, this conversation we're having — I mean all of this, from the being here at all to the falling in love and actually having someone love me back.
[Two people, actually.
He huffs a breath out of his nose and looks off to the side.]
That's the part that's not easy. So don't try to act like this means I never cared about you — I do. A lot. Whether you believe me or not is up to you, but you're not doing anyone any favors by convincing yourself otherwise.
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Instead, it's the bitterness that shines through, and Saul rolls his eyes.]
I'm saying what I'm saying because I don't think it's fair to you. I should've realized that sooner. But what I mean isn't this, this conversation we're having — I mean all of this, from the being here at all to the falling in love and actually having someone love me back.
[Two people, actually.
He huffs a breath out of his nose and looks off to the side.]
That's the part that's not easy. So don't try to act like this means I never cared about you — I do. A lot. Whether you believe me or not is up to you, but you're not doing anyone any favors by convincing yourself otherwise.